021910: Love Letter from FB

Dear D**** M****,

I'm missing you terribly!!! Seriously! I just went to work one day, then realized I have not talked to you for a long time. It's not like we talked everyday when you were here in C***, but today is different. You know, those days when you walk alone or sit in a coffee shop watching people passing by, going about and minding their own miserable lives, then someone walks up to you and slaps you right across the cheek then leaves, and you are left there wondering why. Yeah, I've been having those episodes like that lately aside from migraine and high blood pressure. My life's realizations are becoming terrible nightmares for me. Does this happen as one age or gets older? Because if it does, then it's a bad thing for my nerves and my heart.

I think you know you're one of my closest, and even if J**, C*****, you and I are all friends, I can still confide ALMOST EVERYTHING in you more than them just because you're cool like that. And even if we are so different in personality and outlook in life and I'm not quite sure how we became 'close', I am somehow more drawn to you.

Yeah, I love you like that. All of you are like sisters I never had.

All I'm saying is, I really do miss you Bayot. Why? You might ask... Hmmm... I don't know, I just do!

I miss you, Friend!!! Really... Terribly.... Badly... Severely.... Gravely.... ---->OA na ba?? Hehehehe...

Hope everything is going well in that part of the region!! And, do take care of yourself always!!!

Mmmmmwaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!!!<-----super big, wet smack

Your Friend,

N?

021710: almost Zzzzzzz....

If two shots of caffeine and a stick of nicotine will not work to jump start my half dead brain, then what will? Currently trying to write an Epilogue for my first 'publicized' long fic while I am at work, but it seems all ideas are leaving me. A little help here, please??

021710: February is NOT my FAVORITE MONTH

And so it's mid February. So far and as expected, nothing has gone right. Of the 12 months in a year, I think I may be cursed a trillion and one times on this particular month.

I now declare the first half of February, ANOTHER EPIC FAILURE...

Why? Here are the obvious facts:

1. Paid off my credit card, but had to swipe it again for a tire (YES!!! a friggin' TIRE!!!)

2. More expenditures for the old FX, so basically my savings has gone and currently on a picket (Well, it's not like my papa won't pay it off, it's just really frustrating that nothing is going my way or as planned!!!)

3. My brain is on a major drought for ideas to end what I started. It is getting soooo d.amn frustrating.

4. Still trying to balance the house budget, and it's causing my blood pressure to rise. I hate being troubled by money issues.

5. Still stuck in the same job. When will I ever start loving my job? >>deep breath, huge sigh!! thinking maybe the Gods hate me..<<

6. Too lonely.. Too bored.. In need of a social life..

0110: January 2010 is EPIC FAIL

Now, as I sit near the end of January's tail and hear February banging on the door, I try to recall the things I did to highlight the 1st month of the year. But like every other January of each year that came and went without notice, I realize there was nothing worth blabbing about. It was just another month of another year. It came and went like a blur. Maybe, that's because of my hazy memory. Maybe, because there really was nothing there.

The year and the month started with a mess. It was like a distasteful drama on bad television. Gah! I freakin' cried like a lunatic on New Year's eve because of some petty misunderstanding between my grandmother and my brother. Geeesh, people! And I thought all the while, I was the one with issues. Hmph!! Good grief, gramps just ruined everyone else's New Year's Eve. All the praises goes to Grandma!!

Good thing my brother easily forgets things like those easily. Otherwise, we would be grappling at the tension when they meet on every occasion or celebration we have to attend. Oh, the drama!!

So, what else..what else.. I developed, well, rekindled is more like it, with a not so new bad vice. The smell of nicotine is just too tempting to fore go. Besides, it's not like I've become a chain smoker or something. And oh, I finally let go of coffee when my coffee maker was broken because of the d.amn ants playing house inside the machine.

Hmm, I got a chance to get away from the city this month. I was so proud of my brother who drove all the way to the South of Cebu. Well, we did not go that far, just in San Fernando, but still, it was his first time. So, Hurray! to my brother, I'm a proud sister. We were able to reach our destination safely and came back home in one piece. I guess that would be high-freakin'-light of my month. And, it was my first time to see such adorable, expensive (imported) and high maintenance pitbulls. The place by the way was awesome. I mean super ideal for a family with those kinds of dogs to live in. I would not mind going there again or taking a vacation maybe.

I was able to write at least 9 short fan fictional stories and 6 parts for a long shot this month (still working on the seventh as of this very moment). Yey, giving myself a pat on the back! And I also got to download 2 episodes of WGM with Ssangchu cuts-so I was happy on the last Friday of the month despite the unexpected expenditure because of Basti (Grrrr! Bad dog!). I will continue downloading them until I get all 14 episodes plus the Chuseok special. I know it's been two years since they left the show, but I cannot help it, I am so addicted to them.

Hopefully, February would be a good one since I so truly hate this month. It just keeps on getting worse for me every year. Other than the fact that it keeps slamming the truth (about being NBSB) in my face, nothing just works my way on this freakin' month. Gah!! The sources of my mystical powers seem to hide under the radar during this time of the year.

Still, I'm praying for a good February-crossing fingers!!